First Love

HI GUYS^^ Im just going to talk about my first love.. He is the first person to make me happy from my heart... My first love.. Is someone who showed me courage.. He is also the most wonderful teacher to me for online games.. He treats me nicely.. Like he knows that I am so fragile that I'll break anytime.. He's also the owner of my first kiss... i think..

However... I don't know.. Everything seems different after that time... After the biggest mistake I made in my entire life... I pushed him to tell me that he loves my primary school friend because I thought that I was getting in their way.. Well... My primary school friend loves him... I know now that.. Love cannot be forced... I want to know... If he loves me... If he is happy with me... I don't know... Maybe.. He didn't even like me from the start... I am so confused...

I'll check his facebook account everyday even though I deleted him as a friend on facebook in a rush... And.. I saw yesterday.. A comment by one of his friends.. She said that he does not look like he is in love... And here I thought... Leaving him was for the best... I thought that my primary school friend would be more suitable for him... As.. I guess... Both his and my families are competing our marks.. And.. I HATE IT... I just want him to purely be my friend... We don't need to be lovers...

But... If he is not the one destined for me... Then I don't think I'll accept anyone else...

That's all for todae^^ Byes peeps(: